Stars & Butterflies

It's been quite a while since I've last updated this. Forgetting my password might be a huge contributing factor to this situation....

I am a little over a month into second semester of my third year in college already. Busy, busy, busy. Stress, stress, stress. Sick, sick, sick. Common themes within my life currently.

My parents (and private lessons teacher apparently) seem to think that the reason why I am sick all the time might be because I am more stressed than what I might even realize, which is great. And I've realized too that I find it very difficult to fully relax. I'm constantly thinking about what I have to do, what needs to be done, worrying that certain things might not work out. I want to work on this though because I don't want for this to be my entire life all the time, everyday. Definitely not on my list of fun things to do.

I'm putting a lot of effort into staying positive and not letting people get to me in any way. This is very difficult and takes a lot of conscious effort on my part.

On a slightly different note, I am currently working on a way to do one or two weeks of student teaching in England or France two years from now. I don't want to get too excited or get my hopes too high, but at the same time, I really, really, really want this to happen. I don't know how it's going to happen, but I would be beyond estatic if it did. I guess I'm looking for a miraculous event to occur. I just feel a very strong magnetic pull in that direction. I always have since I was a child, even if for a small period of time it lay dormant inside of me. What would be really nice is if I could teach over in Europe for a year or so. But that's reaching beyond the stars. I think that I'd like to be able to maybe touch a cloud.

Well, that's a little bit of what's been going on in my brain lately.

"And yet, to say the truth, reason and love keep little company together nowadays."-Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream